isnt he look adorable?he’s my ex classmate…i comment on his photo and he deleted me from frenster…nice….who wanna noe him?can get number from me ^^

her concert dvd is out!

1)On monday,I absent from school coz someone in my hosue making problem
2)Tuesday,went to maths seminar..its tiring and i had a great fight with my brother
3)Wednesday..its such a memorable day coz

we finished our practical exam at last!

4)Thursday,school got stupid rehearsal for anugerah cemerlang..and as usual,i fly to other class,den go for tuition

5)Friday,Rehearsal again,went to tuition,tot wanna stay hoem to wacth olympic..then suddenly received a call,then went out with my Bio tuition teacher for snooker

6)Saturday:MOST TIRING DAY   
  Woke up at 6.30,rush to bank to bank in check,then went to orphan’s house for service

to clean up this mess there

feed them eat

sayang them

Celebrate with them(damn!i love this cake!)

then,we rush back to school coz i got anugerah cemerlang at 2.30pm
and guess what?the special guest (Dato Letchumanan)brings 3 bodygurad into the anugerah cemerlang hall…so LC!somemore he is an ex student of the school.

then,went home,finish my drama first,then enjoy my Rainbow Song,play Rakion,Meetoto and msn-ing

7)Today,start to work hard liao..
woke up at 10am brush teeth and bla bla bla…after taken my breakfast,i iron my school uniform(5 shirts 4 pants)..then wash my schooling shoe..then clean my room and computer table.at around 1pm,eat durian first..keke at about 1.30pm,start my revision for biology and PA.Biology finished 2 chapter,PA finished 10 chapter total up 200 pages.After finished the thing i wanna read,i realized that its already 7pm @.@
but feels like sit there for 30 minutes only…then online lo..chat lo..blogging lo…later nid to go out yam cha with fren samore..after yam cha,plan to watch Euki Law!then tommorow nid to finish 3 chapter for biology and 4 chapter in PA…ganbateh!

after all this years….fighting and lighting in my life…i re-cap wat i done wrong after see all the sins done by my dad in his life.
My dad,borned in Ipoh…as usual,chinese from ipoh are mostly gamblers.and my dad is one of them.he seriously addicted in gambling.Lets start the story from the day my mom married to him.After the first day of the marriage,my dad took all the valuable stuff of my mum’s and sell it for gambling.My dad can sit at the mahjong table for 2 days straight without sleeping or brushing his teeth.When my mom give birth to my eldest bro,my mom hope he will change and become a responsible man.But things become worst..my dad ask money from my mum…and he take the money from my mum which use to buy milk powder for gambling.My mum have no choice…she needs to go through all this by herself…work and earn money by her own so that her children can survive.And whenever my mum wanna divorce with him,my dad will threaten my mum by hurting my eldest bro..last but not least,my mum been deceived by her own brothers and sisters because we’re poor.I still rememeber wat my eldest aunt said to my mom before.She said’Why dun u take a plate and begging for food and money at the street?’.This is wat she said to my mum when we are having dinner in my grandma house.My mum suffer a lot to raise up her children(3 of us).She work double shift and do all the house work by her own while facing my dad everyday.Now when i think back,i really touched by my mom.When i was 8 years old..as usual,kids like to eat maggie mee.i cant believe my mum eat maggie for every meal for almost 3 months juz to hold this family.Can u imagine how hard for a woman,as a wife,as a mother,as a factory worker living by only eat maggie as her meal everytime?As time goes by,as expected..children from problem family tends to become wild.My 1st and 2nd bro start to be deliquents  since at the age  of 15  and 16.Both of my bro left school  when they were in form 3 and 4.My eldest bro work as a mechanic but my 2nd bro,involved himself into drugs and pirated vcd business.My 2nd bro caused a lot of problem in the family..snatching,stealing and stuff,u name it.And yet,no one cares about him..Luckily my both of my bro been saved from the dark at last when they grow up.My mom took the initiative to leave us to Ireland when i was 10.I been sent to my grandma house to be taken care.My life in my grandma house is such a nightmare to me.I been deceived and accused of stealing money and stuff.When i turn to age of 15,my mum come back to Malaysia and divorce with my dad.For the following year,i moved back to selangor to stay with my dad and eldest bro.
Its been 5 years i didnt see my fatther.I tot he will change when i see him…sadly,he didnt.He still the same old him.Since he divorced with my mum,he cant ask a single cent from her.BUT..he started the same thing to both of my bro who is working.To support myself,i work since i was at the age of  10 in my granma house.when reach to the year of taking SPM,stress rising to the maximum.My dad start to ask money from me and i have to take care of my study.Luckily dat time my mum already settle down in Ireland and giving me support all the time..and fortunately i score my SPM well.I tot my nightmare has come to an end.But its not.When i reach form 6,my mum having financial problem in Irelandand i got heart failure.and guess wat?my dad making me headache again.He brings China girl home almost everyday.And whenever i confront with him,he will threaten me as well and 2 of my bro dun care anything about wat is happening in de family.All they concern about is their girlfriend.As my life getting tougher,my attitude changed.I become more agressive and suspicious to everyone around me.I been deceive everywhere…working place,school and home.When my 2nd bro got into accident few months ago,my dad cant even take out a single cent for him.And the thing i angry the most is,he still hugging the china girl and giving her money when my bro lying in the hospital.Its reali hard for me to bear all the responsibility.I didnt talk to my dad for almost 6 months even living in the sdame house.Stress seems  to be rise again.I have to take my STPM this year.I will only score and continue to university or i’ll end my dream in form 6.I got no mental or emotion support from my family.There’s no love under the same roof.Whenever i try my best to get some warm from the school,there’s always someone said that im lying.So,its a bit painful when backstab by ur own classmates and they act like innocents in schools.Too materialistic…i wish i could have a appearance.And now,im waiting for the stpm.i’ll die here or lead me to a better life.Im also a human being.All i wanna do is find ways to live.

FOR THOSE OF U OUT THERE:
1)If u think im lying and about my life,i hope it wont happen the same thing to ur family.
2) having the same fate with me,,be strong!
3) To those big mouth and offenders,wait me in hell

I CANT ANGRY WITH MY DAD COZ IM HIS SPERM.

and i like to thank:
1)Andy Tam
2)Pn Tan
3)Pn Alleywati
4)Pn Hartini
5)Pn Azizah
6)Pn Salmiah
7)and those teachers out there
8)Teo
9)Daniel
10)Mom
11)And those of u willingly to be fren wit me,
THANKS!COZ U GIVE ME A REASON TO LIVE UNTIL TODAY
…

and i have to admit,as a human,i did wrong things..
the sins dat i did before:

1)i deceive my fren

2)i steal my fren’s stuff b4

3)i hurt my best fren

4)i backstab teacher b4

5)i laugh at a beggar b4

6)i cheat customers money b4 when im working

7)i smokes

8)i never think of ppl’s feeling

9)i caused one of my fren’s death

10)i always rely on my fren esp Daniel

11)i live without religion

12)I hate my dad!

-sorry-

I post this not to get any shymphaty  from u all.I juz wanna let go my stress here.Or else i will kill my dad tonight coz i juz fought with him 2 hours ago.dats all…thanks

ichihara hayato

THERE’S THREE TYPES OF RING IN THIS WORLD:
1)ENGAGE RING
2)WEDDING RING
3)SUFFE’RING’

I wish i could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who’s inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)

My outsides are cool
My insides are blue
Every time I think i’m through
It’s because of you
I’ve tried different ways
But its all the same
At the end of the day
I have my self to blame
I’m just trippin

Chorus:
You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up
that M.AC. can make
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I’ll make you feel unpretty to

Never insecure until I met you
Now I’m bein stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then i’ll get back to me (hey)

My outsides looks cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I’m through
It’s because of you
I’ve tried different ways
But it’s all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
Keep on trippin

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up
that M.A.C can make
But if you can look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel
So damn unpretty

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up
that M.A.C can make
But if you can look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I’ll make you feel unpretty to(i’ll make u feel unpretty too)

oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh (oh)
oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh (oh)

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up
that M.A.C can make
But if you can look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel
So damn unpretty

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up
That M.A.C can make
But if you can look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I’ll make you feel unpretty too

Doesnt matter how many times you fall…..what count is hoe many times you get back up….silent is everything….

university intake is out….sounds happy but…haiz………………..

pak lah oh pak lah…..its the 6th time the petrol cost been raise…this time 80 cents per litre samore…haiz.. will raise again  in august samore…no bus can fetch me to school from my house la woi

Now that you are out of my life,
I’m so much better,
You thought that I’d be weak without ya,
But I’m stronger,
You thought that I’d be broke without ya,
But I’m richer,
You thought that I’d be sad without ya,
I laugh harder,
You thought I wouldn’t grow without ya,
Now I’m wiser,
You thought that I’d be helpless without ya,
But I’m smarter,
You thought that I’d be stressed without ya,
But I’m chillin’
You thought I wouldn’t sell without ya,
Sold 9 million.

I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will Survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what).

Thought I couldn’t breath without ya,
I’m inhalin’
You thought I couldn’t see without ya,
perfect vision
You thought I couldn’t last without ya,
but I’m lastin’
You thought that I would die without ya,
but I’m livin’
Thought that I would fail without ya,
but I’m on top
Thought that it would be over by now,
but it won’t stop….
Thought that I would self destruct,
but I’m still here Even in my years to come,
I’m still gonna be here

I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what).

I’m wishin’ you the best,
Pray that you are blessed,
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness,
(I’m better than that)
I’m not gonna blast you on the radio,
(I’m better than that)
I’m not gonna lie on you or your family, yo,
(I’m better than that)
I’m not gonna hate you in the magazine,
(I’m better than that)
I’m not gonna compromise my Christianity,
(I’m better than that)
You know I’m not gonna diss you on the Internet
Cause my mamma taught me better than that.

I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive(what),
Keep on survivin’ (what).

After all of the darkness and sadness,
Still comes happiness,
If I surround myself with positive things,
I’ll gain prosperity.

I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what)(Don’t stop me now)
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what).

I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m not gonna give up (what),
I’m not gon’ stop (what),
I’m gonna work harder (what),
I’m a survivor (what),
I’m gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin’ (what).

I’m a Survivor,
your a Survivor
You too can make it
if you work harder
you will survive